rEfLeCtiOns

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else?
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think?
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me?
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

good bye 2005....thank God for the 365days whereby each day is such a blessing from You.....
went thru 2005 in a breeze i guess.without much quarrel within the family,without death hurt and despair compared to last year.but you seem to fly so fast this year,tt i hardly can catch up.i feel like im grasping for time n air in my studies and trying to balance everything.haha

recap of 2005:
Jan-
cant really remember but only remember tt we celebrated ah wee's burthday!!at PS!!!eat cafe cartel n watch a damm funni show!!n she received a levi jeans tt is too tight for her.ahahahhahai guess i was still in my mourning mood coz my grandma passed away on 25 dec 2004. remember i wasn allowd to waer bright colours coz of mourning.nothing special tt i can rem eh

Feb-
Wen Ya's birthday!ahhaahha...eh wat did we do sia?guess i shld start keeping a diary so tt i know wat exactly happen heh.did we go esplanade for fire sparkles after dinner at lao pa sat?i remember we went home quite late n e next day i had morning lect.hee.but as always,we had a wonderful time yeah!!!n valentine!!went out with weng hahaha..go....*scratch*

March-
my burthday n ling's one!!!!one happy one a bit sad...ahahah,eh i remember we went to clementi for kala ok!!!n i received a gold card sia!!for party world heeheehee...n er 1 ang bao!!ahhaha,n ah chen they all gave me ang bao too!!coz i wan a HP...aahah.weng n i went to Sentosa for e chalet.hee ate sakae and we stroll down e beaches at nite.its so nice!!wish we can do tt again.
ling's birthday,we went to her hse for a party!!!n we drank ahahahah so cool!!!saw my ah bex lor.so notti keep wanting to attack me!!ahahah,yeah...then we had lots of fun at her pl la,remember we ate e yummy chicky wing and er spagetti and cake!!ahhaah,but poor wee tt day cried lor,coz she got wacked.but it wasn on purpose.n yan yan too!!coz of her ring.but everyting went smoothy tt day!!after tt i went to meet cw at pasir ris coz he went for alvin's birthday party.ahahha...

april-
busy preparing for my exams n dunno wats going on eh.but remember it was during this period tt i began to lose focus on God and tt was also e time whereby i swayed from church n my cell members.

may-
it was kai yan,gui mei n sally birthday!!eh.....where did we go?humph....oh oh!!we went marina for e "forgot wat's e name" rest n we ate western food!!yum yum eh~!ahahha,after tt we walked to esplanade,sat down discuss bout presents issue n enjoy e beautiful scenery.we stayed till very very late n in e end,me cw n lao di took cab home.sally's birthday,we went to her house surprised her with pizza!!!rite?ahahaha...seriously i cant recall this sia....
but may was extremely stressful for me coz exams r ard e corner n i remembered me n suany always go ngee ann to study till late eh.ahahah,really miss thise times when both of us really pia sia.suannie!!im waiting for you eh.ahahah.
we had our papers at expo*yucks* its was really an awful experience.coz e air con was so cold till i had to wear long sleeves with jeans,covered toe shoes n waer a thick thick jacket n bring in hot water juz to keep myself warm...it really reminds me of those *zhuang4 yuan2 hui4 kao3* for official post in e winter....ahahahahahah

June-
exams r over!!!worked at standard chartered as temporary personal assistant cum administrator for some head.ahahah.it was a real good experience whereby i learn alot,kenna scolded alot,make a lot of mistake yet was forgiven.its was fun yet stressful.coz you know la,blur me huh?

July-
working as usual...lazy to recall

August-
eh preparing for school reopen n i changed church ard this period.

Sep-
skool reopens!!!!!!!!!!!!!yeah!!!tt's when my sch life burst into colous heh.i joined floorball with ah chen n wee....real fun.its a great sport!!!

Oct-
same i guess

Nov-
i started working at ben n jerry!!!stress!!!!

Dec-
here i am finally.....